Sunday, June 7, 2009

I Looked Up

Weeping in the sunshine
Goldfinch flit past my eyes
Flashing bits of brilliant sunlight within my reach
Gentle breezes caress my bare arms
Drying my wet and heavy tears
Coaxing me
enjoy this Day
Coldness from the rock where I am still
Seeps into me
Spreads throughout me
I take my tears and go inside to wait for Night
Darkness always receives me
I will find no distractions from Grief

I looked up
Turning my face to the darkness
Waiting for a familiar coldness
Listening for my sobs
But, I am not overcome
I marvel instead at the near moon
Light surrounded by blackness
A white curved glow piercing the expansive nothing
A hope quickens within, and a thought forms
If the moon in it's passivity can conquer the night
I can in my patience conquer this death that eats me

Today I wept in the sunshine
Tomorrow I will smile, remembering the moon


  1. This really resonates with me. As Amy said, just beautiful.

  2. Brilliant. Absolutely beautiful poem.

  3. Thanks so much for sharing this.

  4. Thanks for your comment on my blog. I've really enjoyed looking at yours. I'm so sorry. I don't know what else to say. I'm full of admiration for your courage. Alice

  5. Your words are full of truth and beauty and power. You are an inspiration.

  6. Oh, this is just gorgeous and heartbreaking at the same time. But it's real. That's what matters.

    Could I read it at our support group meeting Wed night??

  7. Thanks all for your encouraging comments.

    Cara, I'd be honored if you included it at your group. The image was my best attempt to "paint" what I saw that evening. I'm working on finding other Art ways of expressing this journey.


  8. Really beautiful.

    Very brave - to let the sun in.

    love to you