A Fifth Season is a place of pause to grieve the death of my first and only child. A season characterized by reflection on the big stuff and the little stuff that this mom encounters as I parent the memory of my child, and my child, in loving return, parents my heart.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Three Random Pics: Three Random Thoughts
This is another pic of one of the frogs who comes to visit us on our deck. When I catch 'em on my porch, I am compelled to take pictures. There is such interest in their faces. And recently I learned that the two snakes who took residence in a pile of bricks close to our house, eat these very kinds of frogs!
The summer has been a time of getting things cleaned out. We shredded hundreds of documents and took lots of clothes and shoes to the St. Vincent DePaul bin. I included a bag of my pregnancy clothes. Plenty of tears during this event. I couldn't help but note the irony in seeing that I had purchased three polo prego shirts with butterflies on them---a symbol now of Caitlin's spirit in this world, now transformed, but beautiful.
And this, is proof to me that I still have joy in my heart. This was captured while I was teaching my pre.scho.ol music group. And my smile surprised me, I barely recognized myself.
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lovely photos :-)
ReplyDeleteThat last picture brought tears to my eyes! So lovely.
ReplyDeleteNice to see you smile!
ReplyDeleteThe joy in that last one is so clear. Lovely.
ReplyDeleteYou are so in the moment.
ReplyDeleteI invite you to add this post to Perfect Moment Mondays. The feeling of the picture definitely fits!
I hope this particular frog escapes the snakes - s/he looks like a wise old thing, somehow. And your smile is lovely. I'm glad it's making an appearance again.
ReplyDeleteIt is great to see you smiling. And the frog pictures are so adorable. You are a blessing.
ReplyDeleteLove
Lindsay
What a beautiful smile!!!
ReplyDeleteLove and hugs to you!!
I love these. Of course, I love the one of you smiling. Funny how it can catch you off guard, huh? Seems like all three things caught you off guard in their own ways...
ReplyDeleteWanted to let you know I still read you faithfully.
What a beautiful post, your smile is delightful.
ReplyDeleteBlessings to you and your family.
Thank you for your visit to my blog.
Thank you for your kind words to my heart in the season of walking out life without our daughters...you look beautiful in this picture. bless your day!
ReplyDeleteAwww, you are so wonderfully radiant and lovely in the last photo! And I'm a huge fan of your frog photos - this frog does look like he has a story to tell.
ReplyDeleteYou are taking huge steps right now, while still keeping Caitlin in your heart and in your life.
ReplyDeletePeace.
Loved to see this photo of you xxxx
ReplyDeletenice pic
ReplyDeletenice to see you smile like this