No More New Beginnings

Been thinking about how life changes and perhaps this is because of my age, but I'm inclined to think that it's more connected to my life experience of losing my daughter. You see in the wake of changes in work and other life events, nothing seems like a new beginning anymore. Just seems like a continuation of what is since her death. Everything gets measured by what life was like before and now what life is like after. Ah, so there are no new beginnings---just more steps on the journey.

"C'hello" Kitchen Concert

For "Perfect Moment" Monday, I share my kitchen concert for DH. You can't see it very well, but Caitlin's blue bracelet is on my bow hand. This avenue for music making for me continues to provide some healing. I'm grateful.

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No Words

Tears Have Dried

There are days when I feel that the tears have dried
Nights when I wipe away phantom tears
A stoic heart evaporates what should be wetting my cheeks
A conscious mind soaked the moisture away from my skin
I sometimes beg for weeping
Then I'd feel my own heart beat
My own soul be
Sadly, in this moment
I feel that the tears have dried

Ironic, it's what others, and yes, me too, had hoped for
That one day, hours would pass without falling tears
That one day, I'd laugh and think again
It's here --- But, I'm not sure I like it that much more than
the tears

No words
I don't taste them anymore
When they're not seasoned with grief
I just hate this ambivalence
This life, after the death of my daughter

Politics Again (Sorry)

I'm convinced that more children will live if pregnant women have health care. I'm convinced that more children will live if children have health care.

Pro-Life Groups Support Health Care Reform

Catholics in Alliance for the Common Good